Thursday, June 11, 2015

Today

Today is the day. The day that I take a deep breath and walk through those hospital doors and come back out a better version of me.

Today is the day of my hysterectomy. The hope is no more pain, no more periods that leave me in a fetal position in bed. No more telling my kids "mommy hurts to much to play".

When I walk back out of that hospital my hope is that I will finally be pain free enough to be the mother I want to be to my kids. Pain free enough to be able to work out and lose this weight. Pain free enough that I stop being a cranky "B" to my husband.

Through this whole process and all the options I was presented with I knew it would eventually come down to this. The doctors knew too. Four opinions by four different doctors who specialize in women health - plus a few OBGYN's all said take it out.

I have not cried once since being given my surgery date. I have not really had the time to dwell on it either. If I were being 100% honest all I have felt since getting this date is relief. The ONLY thing that scares me is that I have never been put under before. This (besides my cesarean) will be the biggest surgery I have ever had in my life.

If you follow me on instagram, twitter, facebook or even snapchat (barefootedmama) I should have updates on there before and after I get out of surgery.


1 comment:

foxandbroom.com said...

So excited for you. And a little nervous. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and sending you positive energy.